Memory Wall: Foreword by Kit Carruthers

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Many of you may have grandparents, aunts or uncles who enjoy the practice of sitting in silence for three to seven hours a day. You come over to visit, all they want to do is sit there in silence the entire time. Part of you probably feels like you're to leave it, maybe eventually come to the conclusion you can be cool with it, peaceful calm moment, okay. There are four cultures on Earth where this is a standard, everybody just loves doing this it's their favourite thing in the world: Mennonites, Hutterites, Amish, Bolivians.

What they are doing in these moments, unbeknownst to them, is practicing their memory wall. Subconscious memory wall maintenance time, making sure no aspect of their semi-conscious thinking will ever touch certain areas of their memory. Nearly uniformly, they're blocking thoughts relating to having raped their children, their nieces or nephews, their cousins, their siblings. The memories are still there, they're accessible, they are not repressed, any time you want you could trigger their awareness of these memories, however they have entered into a self fragmentation that states the person you are now speaking to is not the person in these memories. My thoughts, my words, my personality, everything you know about me, is not the man who did these things.

You wish to talk about why they enjoy sitting in silence, chances are you will not get potential murder communication, though you may, chances are you'll just get the same simple people like their simple silence feelings that you always assumed it was yourself. Depends how many times the silence has been challenged and how passionate they begin to realize they are about this silence, eventually things start to snap semi-consciously.